needed or not

Felt sorry for wawa about her uncle

She texted about it

She was sad , totally
and something crossed my mind

"convince her , make sure she will be fine"

I did it
with the power of my broken english.

Seriously I want her to be alright
all the time.
I cant see her crying
or being sad.

She said she needs me.
I told her,

"Wa,im always here for you. Win never leave wa. I'll never let you be alone"
"Dont cry. Youre my one strong girl. Im not going anywhere"
"You'll never lose me. I'll always be by your side."

Right after that
I saw naqib tweeted

"Felt sorry to hear that.kalau boleh naqib turun jb sekarang gak"

And I thought about it again
Does she really need me ?
Does wawa really need awin to stay by her side ?
Will wawa be okay without awin ?

And
will awin be okay without wawa ?
I know I dont and I really need her.
So I tried not to think about it.
Lowered my ego and feelings.

"Kita nak awak. Kita penat hilang orang yang kita sayang."

Wa,
we cant get everything we want
but Allah will provides us what we need the most.
Be strong and this is just a test.
Never lose your faith.

I know one day ,
you wont need me idk why.
Its just a feeling.

You'll find someone better.
Im a jerk to you.

A jerk that'll always be here for you.
A jerk that'll never leave you alone.
A jerk that'll never stop from loving you.