First May

In an hour its going to be

1 May of 2014. 

More likely ought to be our first.

365 days ago , 

we declared.

In a blink of an eye ,

we were going further more than we thought.

We fought for fucking lot shit times

Those conflicts , 

those misunderstood issues , 

those old stories ,

those stories about the boys .

The way we fought seems like we are going to meet the end.

But I bear in mind

 we are going through this together

forever.

People say forever doesnt exist

I dont know should I believe it or not

But people also say

if it's meant to be ,

it will be.

You wrote on a pink sticky note

'' nothing can change the destiny''

Our memories , 

lets treasure them in our hearts.

Keep them safe till forever.

Dont forget me

Dont hate me

I beg.

I wil remember every single things 

we've been through.

And finally im forced 

to face the truth

No matter what you say

Im not over you

I still love you

like I used to.

I still care everything about you

like I used to.

Youre perfect 

((except for some of your attitude))

You are still the best.

I wont forget you.

You taught me a lot.

Too many new things Ive learnt from our fights

and it made me even stronger

to face such hard situations.

Thanks a lot for everything.

I cant repay any of them.

1 May of 2013 ,

we watched Iron Man 3 together ,

we sat next to each other.

Ive been imagined 

1 May of 2014 ,

we will watch The Amazing Spiderman together ,

and sit next to each other.

But I know it's just an imagination.

Almost every day I keep thinking

when will ever I get the chance

to hold your hand

lay down next to you

hug you from behind 

walk together

pulling each other

create memories

make our cheesy jokes.

People say

"If you love her , let her be happy with someone she choose."

but it hurts inside. 

We are both hurt , critically.

Im sorry for my dumbness.

I love you incessantly

always be & always will.